This song touches something deep inside me. It's a meditative song. So much to think about. Is it religious? Not really. A "broken" hallelujah.
It's that my life? A broken hallelujah?
When the love of your life, the one you trusted, the one who made you feel secure and the one who made you laugh, died a hideous and painful death in three quick months, everything changes. Your faith changes. You still believe. At least I did and do. But preaching to others? I can't hold up the Story. It's not for me to hold. God is for everything and everyone. God cried and mourned with me, but he didn't heal or change the outcome. He knew I was broken. He knew I was angry. He knew I could stumble on alone. I have. I have stumbled. I have accomplished a few things. It isn't enough. I selfishly want more.
It's that my life? A broken hallelujah?
When the love of your life, the one you trusted, the one who made you feel secure and the one who made you laugh, died a hideous and painful death in three quick months, everything changes. Your faith changes. You still believe. At least I did and do. But preaching to others? I can't hold up the Story. It's not for me to hold. God is for everything and everyone. God cried and mourned with me, but he didn't heal or change the outcome. He knew I was broken. He knew I was angry. He knew I could stumble on alone. I have. I have stumbled. I have accomplished a few things. It isn't enough. I selfishly want more.
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